don't really care anymore... later...
I want a boy. A nice and bad boy. A boy who has shaggy hair and lets me play with it. He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga. He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt. He'll call me at 3am and ask me what i'm doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fallasleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice. He'll text me every morning before schoolsaying "Have a great day babe I love you!". And he always whisper something sweet in my ear. He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band. And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends. When I cryhe'll tell me I'm too beautiful to and he'll kiss every tear. He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me. All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them. He'll stay up with me all night when im sick. When we're walking together he'll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear. He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect. We always end up laughing about silly fights. We wont get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it. Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me ... Everytime he kisses me. He'll tell me he'd die without me. He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day. He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy. he wouldnt be scared to cry in front of me-- --and would hold me when i cry.. he'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he¡¯s ever met. We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing. He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch snowflakes on our tongues. He would grab my waist and kiss my neck. And we'd always take pictures in photo booths. He'll let me go places with his mom. We would play tag and not care whos watching. We'd kiss in the rain. And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again. I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me, and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize. I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars. Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house. When we kissed our hips would be pressed together. I want someone to be there no matter what ... always and forever * Perfect... I'll be his everything...<3
Maybe if I don't talk to you I can forget everything we said.
Maybe if I close my eyes when I see you I can stop crying at night.
Maybe if I try really hard I can stop loving you.
Maybe if I stop imagining your lips against mine I will be able to sleep at night.
Maybe if I stop feeling your body against mine I can breathe.
Maybe if I stop imagining your hand touching mine I can smile again.
It's like once you've been hurt
You're so scared to get attached again
You have this fear that every person you start to fall for
Is eventually going to break your heart
The people who hurt me the most
were the people who swore
they never would.
lay here upon my blankets and in the still of the darkness i picture you, and wonder where you are, what you're doing right now, wishing whatever it is, i could be a part of it, && in a matter of seconds, just as quickly as the thought came, the silence breaks as i begin to cry.
time goes by so fast--people go in
and out of your life. you must never
miss the opportunity to tell these
people how much they mean to you.
i would give up everything and anything
just to know i could be with you.
i would give up everything and anything
just to know i could be with you.
Stay close enough to have fun
yet far enough not to get hurt
& when you start to fall for him again
just remember the crack on your heart
was left from him..</3
its amazing how all this can be happening
i mean, my whole life is falling apart.
& yet; every time i talk to him;
i stop feeling sorry for myself, & i begin to smile
he always has that effect over me .... to my wonderful Micah
so we [ fall ] for stupid boys. we make
lots of dumb [ mistakes ] we like to act
stupid, talk really fast, & [ laugh ] really
loud. but us [ teenage ] girls, we're really
good at one thing ;; staying [ strong ] <3
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